Speaking has always been difficult for me. Everyone in my family was confident, yet I had no self-confidence at all. I felt inferior in every situation. A constant sense of shyness, fear, and inner withdrawal followed me everywhere. I always believed that everyone else was better than me and that I was somehow “less” than others.
To cope, I kept myself busy with studies or activities; anything that would stop me from overthinking. During school life, I learnt stitching, embroidery, cooking, and painting. Looking back, I feel I did all these things just so others would appreciate me and I could feel worthy for a moment.
But the hardest thing of all was talking.
I would feel extreme hunger but could not even ask my mother for food. If someone suddenly spoke to me, my speech would freeze, my legs would shake and I could hardly stay standing. I was terrified of going out alone. People frightened me.
Whenever someone took advantage of me or wronged me, I would stay silent and blame myself instead. I cried easily, lost my appetite and stopped feeling hunger or thirst altogether. I would drink water only when too much time had passed but even then I felt no sensation of thirst.
Life had no charm, no colour.
Emotionally, I felt empty.
My mother was a loving parent in her own way but she had a reserved nature. She focused on discipline, cleanliness and studies more than affection. I longed for her hugs, praise and warmth but I never had the courage to express these feelings to her.
Later, even after marriage, I struggled to build emotional understanding with my husband. The result was chronic depression that kept getting worse.
Discovering Help: The Turning Point
About a year ago, through a homeopathic WhatsApp group, I learned about Dr Hussain Kaisrani.
Although speaking was incredibly difficult for me, I somehow gathered the courage to call him.
To my surprise, he led the conversation so gently and professionally that 30–40 minutes felt like only two.
For the first time in my life, I spoke freely. I didn’t even realise how much I had shared. It was a new and almost unbelievable experience.
Treatment started.
Dr Qaisrani’s counselling helped me deeply. I began to understand myself; my patterns, fears, and suppressed emotions.
My sleep improved.
The dark negative thoughts that constantly surrounded me began to fade.
Life slowly started becoming normal.
My self-confidence began to return.
Within just three months of treatment, I noticed clear improvements. Unfortunately, due to some family circumstances, I had to pause the treatment.
When Things Got Worse Again
Two months ago, I contacted him again because I had fallen into extreme confusion.
My mind felt like it was caught in a storm.
I had no ability to make decisions.
My thoughts were constantly stuck in a cycle of:
- right vs wrong
- halal vs haram
- sin vs virtue
- fear of punishment
- fear that speaking up for my rights would be a sin
This condition is known as Religious OCD (Scrupulosity), a psychological condition where intrusive religious thoughts cause guilt, fear, phobia and constant mental conflict.
I lived in:
- perpetual confusion (cognitive dissonance)
- excessive guilt
- crippling hesitation (analysis paralysis)
- intrusive thoughts and constant fear of divine punishment
I kept thinking:
“What if Allah becomes angry with me?”
“What if I get punished for speaking up?”
“What if something bad happens because of my actions?”
I was emotionally and mentally exhausted.
How Psychotherapy + Homeopathy Worked Together
Dr Hussain Qaisrani is not only a leading homeopathic physician, but also a psychologist and psychotherapist so he understood my condition perfectly.
His psychotherapy sessions played a crucial role. Alongside homeopathic medicines, he provided continuous counselling, helped me break harmful thought patterns, and made me recognise:
- my suppressed emotions
- my childhood conditioning
- my trauma responses
- my people-pleasing tendencies
- my deep-rooted low self-esteem
Alhamdulillah, I am now out of that dark phase.
The intrusive negative thoughts have almost disappeared.
I can express myself easily.
I feel far less confused.
My confidence has grown.
And I am living without any medicine at the moment.
Today, I am able to write this feedback -something I could not have imagined before.
I had tried many homeopathic doctors in the past but I never experienced such clear and deep improvement.
I truly believe that the combination of correct and timely homeopathic remedy + expert counselling + psychological support brought real change in my life.
Why I Want to Share My Story
I want people to know that:
- Having no physical illness does NOT mean you are healthy.
- Emotional and psychological struggles are real and deserve treatment.
- Homeopathy is not limited to treating simple illnesses like flu, fever or stomach issues.
- It can deeply heal mental, emotional and even spiritual disturbances.
And most importantly…
You do not have to suffer in silence. Help exists. Healing is possible.
I genuinely want my detailed case and feedback to be shared so that others can find hope, support and the right direction just like I did.
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